What am I doing awake at 4 am?

Hi Dad,

I guess I'm worried about Noah and that's why I'm awake at 4 am. I had a dream that I was with Noah and we were drawing pictures to send to you.  I have no idea what Noah drew but I drew us on the Sunfish sailboat. It had an orange and yellow striped sail and there were mountains in the background.  Lake Wiawanda (or how ever it is spelled) in Sussex County (I think).  Noah wanted to send the pictures to you and I told him the only way was to burn them so you could get the smoke and then would be able to put them back together like a giant 5000-piece jigsaw puzzle.  And so we went out in the backyard and burned our pictures and sent them to you.  And then Noah wanted to know if he died could he be with you.  I told him yes, but then his mom, grandma, and all of us would miss him so.  And then I woke up.

Oh Dad, I miss you so.  I knew it would be hard but I didn't know it would be this hard to let you go.

Love you,

Dad